April 2025
Elliott Ashley VanHook - April 21, 2025
On Monday, April 21, 2025, my baby left my body but was already with Jesus. This is how I have processed things so far. I just wanted to get it down...to remember. I resonate a lot with songs that seem to be expressing what I am feeling. All day on Monday, these Scriptures and songs were going through my head. I have come back to them throughout the week. They remind me that in good and bad, happy and sad, even when I don't understand, no matter the circumstance, God is in control. Even in my grief, I pray that God gets all the glory and that maybe this may help someone else also lamenting the loss of a child.
Job 2:10b
"Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?"
Job 1:21
"And he said, 'Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.'"
Psalm 23
A Psalm Of David.
The LORD is my dshepherd; I shall not ewant.
2 He makes me lie down in green fpastures.
He leads me beside still waters.1
3 He grestores my soul.
He hleads me in ipaths of righteousness2
for his jname’s sake.
4 Even though I kwalk through the valley of lthe shadow of death,3
I will mfear no evil,
for nyou are with me;
your orod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You pprepare a table before me
in qthe presence of my enemies;
you ranoint my head with oil;
my scup overflows.
6 Surely4 goodness and mercy5 shall follow me
all the days of my life,
Psalm 139:13-16
For you eformed my inward parts;
you fknitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.1
gWonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
15 hMy frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in ithe depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your jbook were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.
Job 19: 25 - 26
"For I know that my Redeemer lives,
and at the last he will stand upon the earth.
And after my skin has been thus destroyed,
yet in my flesh I shall see God"
To Elliott
by Lindsay VanHook
I was so happy the day that we knew
A baby was coming — that baby was you!
We started talking about names and making our plans,
Knowing your time was held in God’s hands.
Your time here with us was incredibly brief.
You went to Heaven, and we’re left with grief.
Your time here with us was not meant to stay,
A fleeting moment, then you slipped away.
Still, I miss you — I long for your hold,
And I wonder what it’d be like to watch you grow old.
Would you snuggle with Mommy, soft and sweet,
Or run to Daddy for rougher retreat?
Would you stay with Abi and cook something yummy?
Or just giggle with joy while you filled your tummy?
Would you build with Elijah, a tower so tall,
Or read with Enoch, through books one and all?
What would be your favorite thing to do?
That I don’t know — but I do know this is true:
You lived every day just as God planned,
And nothing could take you out of His hand.
God’s plan was for you to spend eternity with Him,
And you got to start right as life did begin.
What joy to learn from Jesus face to face —
A life of worship in a heavenly place.
I can’t wait to meet you, to hear the stories you’ll tell.
Until then, I’ll trust that with you, all is well.